Plopping back onto his arm chair, Yamada watched as the student walked out of his room with a smile. It always made his day when he successfully bringing them out of their problems. That was his job, as a counselor. A knock on his office door was heard, and when it opened up, he smiled as he saw a familiar face entering.

Nakajima Yuto, the school’s Art teacher.

***

“How was your day in class?” Placing a cup of coffee in front of the younger man, Yamada went back to his seat and looked at Yuto taking a sip. “The same as always I guess. How about you? Bringing our students up and guiding them back on the track?”

The glare he receives just signaled to him that what he guessed about Yamada’s day was correct.

“It’s funny that you can give people the right advices, yet you’re stuck there.” Yuto knew that it was a sensitive subject and he saw Yamada flinch slightly. Both of them knew very well what had happened during their high school year.

***

They have been best of friends ever since, and their schoolmates would always see both of them beside each other, fooling around. Yuto was the charismatic one, where everyone would always agree when he was leading. Yamada was the one everyone went to when they had trouble, as the boy always gives good advices.

He was always bombarded with their classmates’ pled for relationship advices, and being someone that had not been into a relationship before, Yamada always gives the right tips somehow.

***

“I like you, Yama-chan.” Both of them were just lazing on the rooftop beside each other, and Yuto just had to break the silence with that sentence. Sitting up quickly, Yamada looked at Yuto with wide eyes, not knowing what to do. All he could muster out was a ‘Sorry’ and even if Yuto’s eyes were closed, Yamada knew that the other boy was hurt. 

When questioned about the rejection, Yuto remembers clearly that he saw Yamada fidgeting as if unsure what he should do. “I have no idea what to do if we’re together. I have no idea if I have any feelings … for you.”

***

An awkward silence filled the office, and Yamada just chuckled. “That was years ago, Yuto-kun. Why did you bring it up again?” He had quickly turned away from Yuto, looking out of the window. “I’m bringing it up to see if you’ve found out if you had any feelings for me.” 

Yamada had heard Yuto standing up, and thinking that the younger man would leave, however he did not expect Yuto to be standing in front of him, tilting his head up by his chin and softly touching their lips together. 

***

He had always known that he has feelings for his best friend. Yamada had known that he loves Yuto as much as the younger man loves his back. However when he was confessed by Yuto, he was shocked. Sure, he was like the love guru of their high school, yet he has no personal experience in someone loving him. 

He was terrified that with one wrong step made, he’d lose Yuto. And Yamada was not ready to lose Yuto just like that.

***

“Let me be there to guide you this time? Ryosuke.” Yuto broke off the kiss, and he just leaned his forehead against Yamada’s looking into the elder’s brown orbs. He saw Yamada trying to find reassurance in his eyes, trying to feel that everything would be alright if he fell for Yuto.

A decision was made, a smile was formed, and the distance between their lips was closed once again, but this time, by Yamada.

Sure, he guides people, and give advices. But for now, he’ll let Yuto guide him in this foreign feeling called love.