Story: From a Place You're not There
Chapter 3: 5 months ago
Paring: YamaJima
Genre: Mystery, Fluff, Angst, Tragedy(not decided yet.)
Disclaimer: I don't own them.
Summary: What happened 5 months ago that changed Yuto.
A/N: I need to write more! :D I'm having some writer's block here, and I'm suffering from sun burn because of cycling. Ouch. And this is a very long chapter, and it might be crappy ):

Edit: this chapter had been lengthen, and it's dedicated to Aiko! 8D

Anyway, enjoy this chapter! :D

<< Chapter 2





"Ryosuke!" Yuto shouted towards the shorter boy as he waved his arms in the air frantically to catch his lover's attention. Noticing his boyfriend smiling like a fool, he ran towards him, attacking him in a full blast hug. They stayed there for a moment, forgetting that they were in public. They were in their own world, just a normal Nakajima Yuto and Yamada Ryosuke.

Ryosuke was the one that broke the hug and pulled Yuto's hat lower, so to cover his boyfriend's identity from the crowd. Giving the taller boy a soft smile, he tugged his sleeve towards the restaurant where they had their first date.

Both of them were childhood friends who just stuck together like glue. It was during the last year of their middle school that Yuto gathered all his courage to confess to the older boy. At that time, Yuto had already entered the entertainment world, but never once did he let his popularity affect his friendship with Ryosuke.

Much to his delight, they immediately hit-off. Because of Yuto's idol status, they couldn't publicly show their affections to one another, moreover, they were both guys. And that was unacceptable to the majority of the public.

Walking through the streets, Yuto could only plaster a smile on his face, appreciating Ryosuke to be patient and cool-headed about their relationship. The older boy didn't complain about their current relationship, not even once. Every time when Yuto got all worried about how Ryosuke feels about hiding their relationship, Ryosuke would always give him the smile that was specially reserved for Yuto, and say, "Yuto, I don't mind. As long as you're by my side when I need you." And all of a sudden, all the insecurities within Yuto would just melt away, and vanish into thin air.

Entering the restaurant, they took a seat in a corner, and ordered their meal. Some girls sitting near them was whispering in a hush tone, but both of them heard their conversation loud and clear.

"Look! Isn't that boy cute? With his chubby cheeks! And his eyes! They are like sparkling."
"Oh wait! The other boy looks like THE Nakajima Yuto! Oh my gosh!"

Yuto further sink into his seat opposite Ryosuke, as Ryosuke giggled at his boyfriend's reaction. He knew that Yuto loves his work, but he is also human, and wanted some privacy in his daily life. Bending over the table, he whispered into Yuto's ears, "Don't mind them."

In return, Yuto gave Ryosuke a pout, and Ryosuke could only laugh at how childish his boyfriend is. He couldn't believe that the boy sitting in front of him was actually the same boy on stage. He attended almost all of Yuto's concerts, and he must admit, Yuto was amazingly hot, sexy and mature during the shows. It was never a side that Yuto would show him in their daily life. However, now in front of him, is an immature Yuto, acting like a spoiled brat, pouting.

"You know, the way you're pouting looks like you're inviting me to kiss you." Ryosuke bluntly stated, trying to joke.

Yuto then grinned like a child and said, "Then kiss me. No one would see." And that statement caught Ryosuke off guard. Yuto's grin widened, as he shows Ryosuke a peace sign, acting like a 5 year-old that has managed to persuade his mother in buying him a new toy.

Picking up Yuto's dare, Ryosuke leaned over again, and quickly brush his lips over Yuto's grinning smile. It was now Ryosuke's turn to grin madly, as Yuto's triumph expression turn into a goldfish like expression, with his month opening and closing several times.

Little did they know that there was something terrible that was going to happen the next day.

"WHAT IS THIS? Can you give me an answer Nakajima." Yuto's boss slammed the table with the day's newspaper. On the headlines, was a picture of Ryosuke and him. Worst of all, it was taken when Ryosuke had given him a chaste kiss. Although their faces weren't clear, it was clear who they were to those who knows them. For the public, almost everyone knew the one sitting down was the famous Nakajima Yuto, and the other one standing was a guy. However, for those who knows both of them, it was easy to recognise that they were Nakajima Yuto and Yamada Ryosuke.

Yuto could only stare at the article in disbelieve. He was very sure that there wasn't anyone stalking behind them when they entered the restaurant. His world started to turn, as he felt his head getting heavier and heavier, and he fell into the darkness.

Waking up at the sound of his phone ringing, he realised that he was sent home. He picked up his phone reluctantly, as he wanted to be segregated from the rest of the society. But, the phone call he received made him dash out of his house without any disguise.

"Nakajima-kun, this is Mrs. Yamada. Ryosuke is ... Ryosuke has been admitted into the hospital."

Along the way, he had earned many stares from the public. Whispers could be heard, but none of them were clearly heard. He didn't have time to listen to them gossiping. Ryosuke was in the hospital. There was only one thing in his mind.

Yamada Ryosuke.

When he reached the hospital, he was quickly greeted by Ryosuke's mother. The women was crying silently, with her husband hugging her. When both of them saw Yuto. They didn't reprimand him. They didn't look at him in disgust. All he saw from their expression was sadness.

When Yuto approached them, Mr. Yamada pulled Yuto into a hug too. A hug that Yuto didn't know that he needed. A reassurance.

A hug of acceptance from Ryosuke's parents.

They slowly explained to Yuto what had happened. Apparently, his fan girls in school had called Ryosuke to the nearby park after they had saw the article. As the Yamada's had saw it too, Ryosuke's mother had decided to follow closely behind the big group of Yuto's fan girls and her precious son.

When they had made sure no one was there, a girl stood out, probably the leader, and grabbed Ryosuke by the hem of his shirt. She spat in disgust, saying all sorts of nasty comments about Ryosuke. After awhile, all of them started to pressure Ryosuke, and as Ryosuke started to back away, he didn't realise that he was at the edge of the side walk.

After one more step, he tumbled out onto the road, and unfortunately, a car came rushing pass and didn't have time to stop, banging into Ryosuke and the impact threw his lifeless body a few feet away. The bunch of fan girls could only stare. Ryosuke's mother could only watch all these unfold in front of her eyes. Not only did the fan girls didn't call the ambulance for Ryosuke, they even spatted that he had deserved it. The driver that had knocked him down had drove off immediately, not wanting to take responsibility.

When Yuto had heard this, he was stumped. He didn't know that Ryosuke had to suffer so much. Tears started to flow, and Ryosuke's mother hugged him in console.

Then, she told him something that made him cry even harder.

"Yuto-kun, we don't blame you. You're the person that made Ryosuke smile the best. Thank you. Both of us accept your as who you are."

After what seemed to be a millennium, the doctors came out of the operating room. The 3 of them were stunned when they heard what the doctor told them. "Yamada-kun is conscious now, but he might not make it. You should say your good byes now."

Yuto was the last one to enter Ryosuke's ward. The Yamada's excused themselves, knowing that this pair of lover would need this last moment together. Looking at Ryosuke, Yuto didn't know what to say. Tubes were stuck into the older boy's perfect body, and his breaths were heavy and laboured. Seeing Yuto, Ryosuke smiled softly, and waved for Yuto to come closer.

When Yuto was at his bed side, he pulled off his oxygen mask, and pulled Yuto down for a kiss. Yuto was absolutely shocked with Ryosuke's actions, but before he could say anything, Ryosuke broke off the kiss and whispered to Yuto in his now rough voice, "I love you Yuto, no matter where I am, no matter if I had forgotten you. Please, find me again and make me fall in love with you again. Yuto that would be our last kiss. I ... love you ... forever."

And Ryosuke's hand landed on the bed, eyes closed. He was smiling like an angel, at peace. Yuto couldn't comprehend. Ryosuke just left him. Just like that. He pressed the bell of the nurse, but no one came. All he could do, was scream in frustration in the lonely and empty hospital ward, holding onto Ryosuke's now lifeless body.

"Ryosuke, I'll find you. I love you too." And Yuto collapsed onto the ground, unable to accept the fact.

Unable to comprehend that the person that he has love all his life has vanished from his life, forever.

For a few weeks, there wasn't any news about the idol that made the girls in Japan fawn over him. In a small corner of the obituary in the newspaper, was a picture of the smiling Yamada Ryosuke in his last glory. Now, almost everyone knew about the Nakajima Yuto scandal, and who was the other mysterious guy that shared a kiss with Yuto. There were many comments that were flying all over the internet when the public knew about Ryosuke's identity, and what had happened to him.

'Such a poor guy. I pity him, but their relationship is unacceptable for me.'
'HA! Who cares about that Yamada guy? Serves him right! He stole Yuto-kun from ME!'
'I do understand how he would have felt.'
'Fan girls shouldn't get into their idols private life! Much less interfering and causing a person's death.'
'I believe that the fan girls are not at fault! They didn't mean it right?'

Yuto read all of these post, some bashing their relationship, some that supports them, some ... he didn't even want to continue. Slamming his laptop shut, Yuto laid own on his bed, which felt empty because of the space between him and the wall was really glaring.

It was the spot that Ryosuke would sleep whenever they had sleepovers.

Nakajima Yuto had locked himself in his room when he came back from the hospital. His handphone was switched off, so no one from the company could contact him. His family tried to persuade him to come out to eat, but he didn't reply them every time. One night, his father sat outside his door, and told him that he and his mother would always support him, no matter what is his sexual orientation, because love could never be forced. Only than, Yuto went near the door and muttered a 'Thank you' loud enough for his father to hear.

But he had never stepped out of the room whenever his family was outside. He would always bathe during the midnight and early morning, and he didn't touch any food. His appetite had disappeared. He didn't want to do anything. Yuto needed the time to escape from this reality, and slowly let the fact sink in.

On the 3rd week in his lock in, Yuto's body couldn't handle the stress, and he collapsed.

His parents were worried, and broke into Yuto's room, only to see their son on the floor unconscious, and Yuto was quickly rushed to the hospital.

When the checkup was done, the doctor said that Yuto couldn't accept the fact of Ryosuke's death, and that had done some damage on his brain, however, there isn't any threat, for now.

In a comatose state, Yuto saw Ryosuke in his subconscious. He saw Ryosuke shake his head in disbelieve, and he heard his boyfriend say, "Yuto, you know better than to start starving yourself! You're already so skinny! Eat up, or I'm going to force you to eat the next time."

And with that sentence, Ryosuke disappeared into the darkness, with the last words, "I love you Yuto, don't forget the promised you've made. You'll find me right?"

"I'll find you, I promise." And everything went white.

Slowly, Yuto's eyes fluttered open and he saw his parents' worried expression. Smiling slowly he told them, "Tou-san, Kaa-san, I saw Ryosuke."

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